🍌 how does a 'glory hole' work? i asked
@babydilfx on sex, art, lovers and misconceptions
good evening,
painting by ross morgan
how are you doing, my lovelies? tonight i’d like to take a moment to appreciate the beauty of an entirely lowercase sentence. how good does it look. there’s something about intentional lowercase that feels 2005, it feels like the very specific age between 9 and 12 where you start making stylistic choices. this is the late-2YK aesthetic in written form. fetch!
I’m going to come out of that now to introduce tonight’s guest. Emil (he/she/they) is an artist, a HIV+ health educator, a visionary and a CEO who operates a gloryhole in Melbourne.
It was my old housemate – an art freak who is super plugged into the scene in Australia – who first showed me Emil, otherwise known as Baby Dilf.
I was immediately transfixed. On Instastories, Emil chronicles gloryhole experiences; always treating “lovers” with compassion and interest. It’s a fascinating experiment into sexuality and queerness. Many of the people who visit Emil are “straight” men… hearing their stories is just another reminder that sexuality is a spectrum, and every hole is a goal. Lol.
This is a trigger warning – Emil pulls no punches as we talk about sexual assault and, more specifically, rape. I’ve been thinking a lot this week about Grace Tame and how victim-survivors speaking bluntly about their experiences is an important part of breaking down stigma. I definitely wince when I hear a word like rape, and it’s probably worth asking why. I am very thankful for Emil’s generous honesty.
(This is a long interview, and Gmail might cut it off 😡 if that happens, you can read the full ting here!)
Introducing: Baby Dilf.
WHO
F: Are you?
E: Good question. But also, “who would play me/her?”
In this context, “I'm just a hole, sir.” I’m not sure if you saw this meme go around the last few days of this t-shirt with the pronouns he/him/hole? Can I just say how much that photo resonated with me? ‘Finally, some hole representation!’ I thought to myself.
On a serious note, I’m a Trans Genderfluid Filipino-Aussie Artist based in Naarm. During the day, I support people newly diagnosed with HIV and those just coming to terms with their diagnosis. I also create programs for people like me and manage a couple of HIV+ groups for young folks and the Victorian Asian Community. I’m also HIV+ so I’m in a great position to help guide people along their HIV journey. By the way, did you know people living with HIV on effective treatment (i.e., a single daily pill) cannot transmit the virus anymore? Yeah, I know. Amazing. You can learn more about it here.
At night, I’m a gloryhole-owner, a cocksucker, cum-guzzler and an all-around slut who tries to do what I do as a work of art. Definitely here to give a different meaning to ‘multi-faceted.’
In terms of who would play me? That’s for your readers to come up with by the end of this interview! If anyone has any ideas of who, please slide into my DMs!
GLORYHOLE
F: Can you explain your Gloryhole project to us? How did it start?!
E: Ouff. This one’s quite the journey. Trigger warning to anyone who has experience of sexual assault and rape before I do share my story.
If this is a sensitive subject for you, please proceed with caution and a lot of self-compassion. Know that getting support and access to quality therapy can help you a lot with your healing. You’re not alone.
Now, the Gloryhole project came up as a result of going through therapy early last year (2021). I was raped when I was a kid and it was only 10 months ago when I finally had the capacity to talk about it with my therapist.
I’m not sure if you’re familiar with Chronic Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD), but one of the effective treatments psychotherapists use to treat this is through this treatment called an Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) therapy. EMDR is one of the treatments used to help me manage mine. Now, a side-effect of going through this treatment is that it unleashes a lot of the feelings/emotions/memories that your mind has kept from yourself due to trauma.
When I was going through this treatment with my psych, I was having constant nightmares and very vivid dreams for a whole week as a result. According to my psych, this is one of the ways our brain processes things from our subconscious. As these nightmares were subsiding, I had a dream about owning a gloryhole…
As soon as I woke up that day, I just had this uncontrollable urge to have one. Without any hesitation, I texted a couple of queer tradies I know (I think it was around 7am when I did this), and I asked them if they could help me build a gloryhole. The universe clearly wanted me to have a gloryhole because in less than 24 hours, my two friends, without any questions asked, came over, went to Bunnings with me and built the gloryhole just like that! Cameron and Chris, if you’re both reading this - thank you xo
Organically, this part of my life became a part of my practice because of what I write and talk about. To anyone who doesn’t know about my work, part of my practice is all about exploring the sexual politics and intimacy of hook-up culture through a sociological, trans & coloured lens. I might as well use my Social Sciences degree for something right? Jargon aside, I practically write about my sexual relationships (with their consent) and share my journey and experiences with my followers. On my account, you can engage and reflect back to other people how you would navigate or feel about certain topics. Sometimes, I also present them like I would do research: pie graphs and donut charts and all! It’s basically an read-all-you-can not-so-little black-book. A bit of Carrie Bradshaw and a whole lot of Samantha Jones for any of your Sex & The City/And Just Like that fan/readers.
So, out of boredom, with a combination of being an over-sharer and digital exhibitionist, I thought I’d extend my practice to talk about the people who visit my gloryhole – and bam! The Gloryhole project! I’m currently in the process of writing a book with some of these stories with some not-so Instagram-friendly content, so if any of you are keen to be on the waiting-list, please click here.
VETTING PROCESS
F: How do the people who come to the glory hole find you? Do you have a ‘vetting process’?
E: I have a number of listings scattered in different apps and websites. On these sites, I basically describe what I’m looking and offering to anyone who may be keen at exploring something new and fun with me. It’s normally a few paragraphs long since I think it’s paramount to be transparent about what’s involved. Especially when we’re in kink-space and being in a very vulnerable position: them, coming in a stranger’s house and inserting their cock in a hole hoping it’ll do what it’ll do, and with me, allowing a complete stranger in my home while I’m stuck behind a hole. Setting the environment and being clear about what you’re offering and expecting is paramount for things to work out. I know that it sounds scary, but with the right people, it can become one of the most liberating sexual experiences of your life!
In terms of a vetting process, a lot can be said on the energy and vibe someone gives off as they text you. As you can imagine/also sadly experience, some people, particularly men, can be extremely sloppy, entitled, aggressive, and mindless with their messaging. “Any pics? Show us your tits! Come suck me!” as their first message generally gets a boot.
I understand that I’m offering a gloryhole, but I think some people forget that there’s still a person behind that hole.
Communication is number one for me, and if someone’s respectful, knows how to communicate and is very thoughtful with their words, that’s usually my green light. Since I’m not able to get a lot of information from the other person, I need to trust my intuition a lot. Since starting the gloryhole, I’ve had 687 visits (and counting) in the gloryhole and have had only less than a handful of creeps. So you could say the process has also been a really great way for me to have a better relationship with myself and in so many ways, it also taught me that I can feel safe around straight-identifying men.
SET UP
F: Can you explain the set up of the glory hole? Is it in your house? Do people walk up stairs? I’m wondering about the general layout and how you stay safe.
E: It’s set up in my apartment. When I’m talking to someone and if we click and would like to connect, I then send them my general address. Once they’re here, I then send them the instructions on how to come up. I live a few floors up so it’s quite a process to get someone through from the gates of the complex to my place. Thankfully, my apartment complex is gloryhole-user-friendly so it hasn’t been as complicated as most would expect.
Not Just A Hole, Sir (Brunswick East, VIC, 2021)
On their way up, I then leave the door unlocked (they are told to remove their shoes in text communication) and wait for them to just come in and slip themselves in the hole, which is currently replacing my bedroom door. Alongside it I have some poppers (amyl), cleaning wipes, a cock ring and porn playing. It’s extremely straightforward and I’d like to be as accommodating as possible.
In terms of safety, my friends have designed my gloryhole in a way to keep myself safe from the person outside. I also don’t have anything particularly of high-value in my home that can be carried easily so I’m not that worried about theft. I also have other measures in place to keep myself safe.
If you want to see me in action, you can see some of my work through my JustForFans, which goes live this week!
LOVERS
F: How do you approach your lovers when you want to feature them? Do they know about the art project (e.g. do they come to you via IG?) or is that a side product?
E: The video-ing discussion always happens before the guy comes over. But when it comes to creating art with them, I tend to ask them after since I don’t normally know before or during if the vibe is right/is there a story to share. As you can imagine, I’ve received a lot of different responses. Most people I find are very relaxed about it, while other people have only allowed me to have their videos shared on my private chat group/OnlyFans, while others prefer to have none taken at all. I found that a lot of them are just surprised that what I do would be considered as art in the first place since they tend to only see it as a horny experience.
52YO Truck Driver (2021) (love the little wave goodbye)
Most don’t know about my exact IG account, because that will break the anonymity, we both have with one another. I don’t even know any of these men’s real names since we’re all using usernames. A lot of them I find are happy with the exchange since they’re getting head as part of the process. Sort of feels like an equal transaction in some way, and others enjoy the exhibition. The only thing most of these men ask is to cover any tattoos or company logos that they might be wearing (57% of men who visit me are tradies who tend to wear their uniform) and to not show any faces. I try my best to present someone in a way that de-identifies them to protect their safety and privacy, particularly when there are married men and men cheating on their partners who’ve visited.
I have a very strict rule about not using my art-practice (i.e., Insta page) as a hook-up site. Meaning, I don’t have sex with people who follow and engage with my work. So if someone’s hit me up through Insta, it’s pretty much a no. It just sort of defeats the whole idea of the gloryhole for me: the minimalism in the act, the power of anonymity, and the erotica in the unknown.
If you want to see some of the men who have been through the hole, click here.
SURPRISES
F: What has been your most surprising encounter so far?
E: OMG. I have so many! Another reason for me to shamelessly plug my upcoming book TBH! Thanks Lucinda! X
The first memory that popped into my head when I read this question was this moment that I had with this Handsome Personal Trainer who visited my gloryhole the first week it was up. Initially, I thought he was a catfish as I just found him too hot to be true. Very North Shore Sydney Private School boy now Bondi-Resident who played soccer all his life, has perfect teeth and surfs on the weekend kind of vibe. Big Hot Fukboi Energy. He proved me wrong by coming over. When he got here, he was wondering if we can go beyond the gloryhole. I wasn’t too comfortable exposing myself at that time so I gave him this full face mask to wear that would stop him from seeing anything the whole time we played together.
Country Boy (Brunswick East, VIC, 2021)
Surprisingly, he agreed to all of my conditions and we ended up having sex for a good 4 hours with him fully blindfolded. We had great chemistry and the fact that some of his senses were deprived meant that his other senses were a lot more sensitive. We were so spent by the end of it that he ended up falling asleep with the mask still on. When we both woke up in the morning, we proceeded to fuck again and he only took his mask off after I guided him out of my bedroom for him to put his clothes back on. It was a pretty wild night. We barely got any sleep and the only reason he had to leave at that point was because he had a client to train already waiting for him at the gym. He never saw what I looked like and I never heard from him again since. We had quite an amazing time though. I’ve just never met anyone who submitted themselves to a stranger like that. I don’t think I’ll ever forget that experience. It was horny, it was somewhat romantic, and almost magical.
IDENTITY
F: Many of the people who visit you identify as cisgender, male, straight. Did this surprise you at first? What percentage do they make up?
E: Not at all. I’ve been a big fan of gloryhole porn for quite some time now and I find that even from other gloryhole owners that a proportionate amount of people who access their holes are men who identify as straight.
I think part of this reason is because straight men may be dealing with a very different sexual economy compared with their queer and gay counterparts, and having this very simple idea of a gloryhole, where there’s no courtship or talking involved and you can just come in, dump a load and move on with very minimal engagement proved to be very appealing to a lot of them. For queer and gay men, you can find someone who can suck you off in less than 5 or ten minutes on apps like Grindr.
Very often I get told by my visitors that they just want to get sucked off and experience a release regardless of whose behind the hole, sometimes, they’re just feeling adventures or would like to know what it’s like to be with a trans person, while others, just really struggle to find women to have sex with. I’ve heard of so many different intentions and motivations now that there’s just no single answer to why these men like the hole.
For anyone who wants some statistics. For the first month of the gloryhole, I decided to do some data-gathering after having 124 men over. I found that 95.2% of them identified as straight. About 4.8% or only 6 identified as either Gay, Bi/Pan or Queer. My theory is because queer men tend to access sex a lot more easily, this just doesn’t appeal as much. Countless research has already been done before that suggests that how you identify sexually doesn’t always translate to how you behave and I think even my own casual research supports this point.
If there’s one take-home message for me it’s that non-queer folks can also be fluid. Can I just say how refreshing it’s been for me to have met so many beautiful, soft and gentle men through this experience. For someone who is mostly connected and engaging with mostly queer folks, for a very long-time I’ve had a lot of prejudices towards cis straight men. Seeing so many with these creative, adventurous and vulnerable parts to them just made me realise our similarities rather than my fear and anxieties about them. I’m really happy that I’ve been able to de-other them in my life.
WHY
F: Why did you start the glory hole project?
E: I love stories, sharing my healing process, talking about the things I learn about people, and giving voice to events that we normally don’t hear about. I’m also a sexual health educator by day so it felt natural for me to educate people on what it’s like to explore your kink, to heal from sexual trauma and to create a safer sexual environment..
I can’t even put into words the things I’ve learned, healed from, and the level of sexual liberation and confidence that I felt since allowing myself to explore my inner sexual desires.
I remember how much the first two days were the most euphoric moments I’ve had with the gloryhole. Only because I realised that it was the first time in my life where I didn’t have to navigate sexual racism. I didn’t have to talk about HIV, none of that mattered.
I even had this moment where I was like, “oh my god! Is this how it feels like to be white and negative?” Not only that, I don’t have to think about my body, any feelings of body dysmorphia disappeared. For the first time in my life, I didn’t have this internal feeling of wanting to compare myself with any hot person that I see on the Internet. I learned, through the gloryhole, that I am enough.
I also love showing the world how trusting and generous strangers can be with one another. I’m one of those people who believe that most people are good and I hope other people are also able to see that too.
VULNERABILITY
F: This is probably related to the previous question… in one of your stories you mention that it wasn’t until recently that you felt truly vulnerable, sexually. It’s so interesting because I just assumed you would be vulnerable by default, seeing as you are empathetic to the people you engage with. Like, you obviously make them comfortable and in my mind you’d need to be vulnerable to do that. In that moment that the vulnerability hit you, was it a sudden realisation?
E: I know. It’s definitely one of those chicken-or-the-egg moments. I tend to be the jump-head-first-and-learn-through-survival kind of gal. I learned through my therapist that I tend to like to be in control of a lot of things during sex because of my anxiety. Because of this I also had a very limited idea of what I can do in bed and injured myself a lot because of how much tension I had in my body.
When I talked about sexual vulnerability, I see it in a way of having the power and agency to explore my sexuality. Like learning to communicate and ask for what I want in bed, learning to accept my body during sex, learning to desire myself and having a playful and experimental side to my sexlife. I think of it differently from emotionally connecting with someone since my conversations with these men to talk more about their life and who they are as people.
I struggled a lot or had none of it in the past so my work has always been about wanting to undo a lot of that insecurity. Although I don’t generally have any problems being emotionally vulnerable, but once sex started back then, my body just tenses up and I start to get anxious. After therapy, a lot of that has disappeared or managed, and I’m able to experience a different side to it.
The realisation came up to me after having sex with my lockdown buddy. He’s the first man from the gloryhole who I allowed to see me without the hole. The experience was so liberating and affirming that it helped me see myself from a different light.
INSTA BIO
F: Your Instagram bio says ‘NG | HIV+’. What does this mean? I googled the ‘NG’ bit and the first suggestion was ‘Neutral Good’ which I’m guessing isn’t right… And on that, what are the misconceptions about being HIV positive?
E: Oh! NG stands for Neil Gaiman - he’s the person who wrote the quote in my bio: “That is the eternal folly of man. To be chasing after the sweet flesh, without realising that it is simply a pretty cover for the bones.” I just couldn’t fit his name in so it’s the best I can do at making sure I attribute the words to the artist. I’m definitely not ‘Neutral Good’. I think I oscillate between ‘Chaotic Good’ and ‘Lawful Evil’.
I like to be open about my HIV+ in my art practice because I like reminding and showing people that Positive People are safe sexual beings. I also like to have people to know that they’re experiencing my journey through a HIV+ person’s lens.
Although I don’t share my status to most of my sexual partners for my own safety.
Sadly, there are still a lot of misconceptions about being HIV Positive. For example, a lot of people still think that we are dangerous or contagious. HIV+ folks who are on effective treatment cannot pass on the virus anymore. The treatments we have these days are so good and simple that it’s able to prevent the virus from killing us and infecting others. The treatment is so good now that there’s been 0 cases of anyone on effective treatment transmitting the virus to another person.
I’ve met so many HIV+ parents who have HIV-children, I have had sex with hundreds of people and not infect any of them, I’ve met people who are over 90 and living with HIV. So many of the misconceptions people have about HIV were born 40 years ago. It’s been 40 years now, so you can just imagine how much advancement we’ve had since the start of the epidemic. Sadly, our news cycle doesn’t particularly focus on good news and people don’t generally like to talk about stigmatised issues like HIV/STIs, so a lot of us are still in the dark about HIV.
HIV does not discriminate, straight people can get HIV too. So regardless of your identity, as long as you’re sexually active and non-monogamous, it’s important to test once a year. Knowing your HIV status is your responsibility at keeping yourself and others safe.
It’s also not that easy to catch HIV. Only .1% of the Australian population have HIV. You have pills that can protect you from HIV if you don’t like using condoms (ask your doctor for PrEP). You have pills that can prevent HIV transmission if a condom breaks (ask for PEP). There’s rapid HIV tests available that can get you your HIV result in 15-20 minutes.
If you have any questions, please don’t also hesitate to contact your local HIV org or slide into my DMs.
DAY JOB
F: This is not my fave question because I’m asked it a lot, and sometimes it strikes me as a thinly veiled way of suggesting my work is a ‘hobby’. (I am a CEO.) I guess I’m asking because a lot of young artists wonder how they can do their practice while paying the bills. What do you do outside the glory hole project?
E: No dramas at all on my end! I work in the HIV sector primarily helping other Positive folks. I have a background in Social Sciences, and I use this to create programs to educate and reconnect HIV+ folks with themselves and their communities. I feel very lucky to be doing the work that I do and I think because of how queer this sector is, I find that they’ve also been very supportive of my practice. I find that my education from work feeds a lot into my art practice and vice versa.
ART AND WORDS
F: The way you present your work and practice is really beautiful. Your writing is so engaging, I’m following along and feel the understanding and clarity in your voice. Did you study art? Writing?
E: Thank you for the really beautiful feedback, Lucinda. That really means a lot. English is not my first language and have a lot of insecurity over my grammar and writing so part of me. Writing has been a way for me to improve both.
I haven't formally studied writing or art, but I have always had such a deep love for both and consumed both in my free time. As I mentioned earlier, I’ve studied Social Sciences at uni so I’ve been able to have the lens and the language to talk about what I observe.
My therapy also involved a lot of therapeutic practice which requires a lot of honesty writing. I decided to apply this into my sex life to help me heal from my sexual depression.
ART YOU LOVE!
F: The art in your house has me weak. Who is your favourite artist, or art work?
E: Thanks bb! I don’t think I have a favourite artist or work in my home; I’m in a poly relationship with my artworks so I can’t be seen favouring one over the other.
Outside of my home, if I have any recent favourite artists it’d be Yhonnie Scarce. Her storytelling through glass is one of the most powerful pieces of art that I’ve ever seen. I’m still haunted by her pieces to this day.
REACTIONS
F: Your work is something I’d never seen before. Mind you I’m pretty sheltered. I imagine it would take a lot of people by surprise. I want to know what the response has been like from three groups – your fam, the internet, and the art world? The art world is notoriously fickle, right? Is this project something they lap up?
E: As a queer person and sex worker, I knew a lot of people before me who’ve done what I’ve done: capturing, presenting, and writing a bit about their lovers. Their vulnerability inspired me to explore my own and present it in my own voice.
I have no doubt that there’s some people surprised about what I do. I think because I work in sexual health and surrounded by a lot of sexually liberated queer folks that I’m so desensitised to it and see it no different to any other social interaction. I’m very lucky that I have very supportive and engaging Instagram followers, which consists of a lot of people I personally know and work somewhere that is accepting of these things. I wouldn’t have been able to explore and talk about what I do without all of them helping me in creating this safe online space.
The internet folks have been so lovely and engaging. Very rarely do I get people who misunderstand my work or spout hate at what I do. I feel like I’ve been able to create a lot of meaningful connections through it. So many of my dearest friends and community I’ve been able to foster through my art practice.
I got kicked out of home when I was a teen and have been estranged from most of my family since so I don’t really know what they think about this. The only person in my family who has an idea is my mum and she’s been very supportive but she’s not fully aware of the extent of my work.
It’s only been the last couple of years when I started to flirt with the arts. It’s taken me quite a while to see myself as an artist since I didn’t have any formal qualifications. I feel very grateful to have been invited at QAGOMA to talk about my work, had my first exhibit at IMA Brisbane, interviewed by ABC Radio National, funded by Arts Gen and asked to write for the NGV. This year, I’m currently working with Queerstories and QAGOMA to talk about my Gloryhole and working with a local designer to have my first solo exhibition.
I feel extremely humbled to be seen by my peers and acknowledged by these institutions. I also find the Australian Queer Community being very supportive of one another. I feel very grateful to have met so many genuine, inspiring and hearty people in this community.
SUGGIN KOCH
F: The overwhelming response I see on your stories RE: your fellatio is next level. What is the secret to a stunning knob job?
E: Thank you! It’s nice to know that I give good head (qualitative data available). I have my Babydilf Blowjob Technique available in my stories for anyone who's curious to try them out!
Although it’s important to note that not every knob is the same and I’ve had experiences where it just doesn’t work. For me, I tend to suck someone’s cock like I would if I was making out with them. I know that I’m a very good kisser so I’m just applying the same techniques to sucking cock: learning to read the person’s body, being present in the moment and by focusing on giving them pleasure.
Emil & Cockhead (2022)
I highly suggest looking at gloryhole videos online since a lot of people who own them tend to have very good techniques. I’ve spent years watching gloryhole videos and have seen different techniques, so mine’s been a combination of these things + me just being a total sloppy bitch.
Obviously, nothing beats communication. Ask your partner what feels good for them. Take time to explore other parts of their body. Be in it to win it!
HOUSE
F: In this Insta highlight, you talk about moving cities during COVID. The thing that struck me the most was your style (!!) – your house is glorious. All of your art! All of it. I have to ask… where did you get this pink stool?
E: OMG! Thank you. This home almost killed me! I moved into an empty apartment and only had a couch, bed, bookshelf and my artworks in hand. I had the last year and a half of living on my own during lockdown and spent a lot of my free time stalking 2nd-hand Instagram shops and Facebook Marketplace. It was very depressing to live in an empty home during lockdown so I was craving a lot of warmth and playfulness in my home. It was also a very good time to experiment because I just moved to a new place and didn’t want to make the space look clinical.
With so many people stuck at home, so many have also been cleaning house and there’s so many affordable gems going around!
The pink stool is by Ettore Sottsass for Kartell and you can buy one brand new in stores like Space Furniture for $570. If you have a sharp eye, you can buy one second hand from around $200 - $300.
NORTHSIDE
F: Your gloryhole is in Brunswick East, right? What is your FAVOURITE restaurant in the area? Best dish?
E: Yes! I’m in the Inner North. I think my favourite restaurant is Bar Idda. It’s this beautiful Sicilian restaurant in the corner of Lygon. Their slow-cooked roasts are always so yummy and the set menu is always a treat.
I bring a lot of my dear friends and lovers there and the vibe is always right and the food always feels home-cooked. There’s just so much warmth and generosity in the food and space.
HOME
F: I’ve read you’re Filipino-Australian. Did you grow up eating both cuisines? What’s your favourite childhood dish.
E: I mostly ate Filipino food since I spent most of my youth in the Philippines.
My favourite dish would be Sinigang na Bangus. It’s this sour soup dish that’s made with tamarind paste, fish sauce, tomato, vinegar, green beans, bokchoy and MilkFish. My family were FishMongers and I grew up in a fishing town so we ate a lot of seafood growing up.
Recipe: LutongPinoyRecipe
INSTAGRAM COMMUNITY STANDARDS
F: It’s no secret Instagram’s community standards and guidelines are backward and shit. You lost your account back in October. Losing your account sounds sort of trivial… but it’s an art practice. Did you lose it all? Could you retrieve anything?
E: Sadly, I did lose it all and Instagram didn’t even allow me to challenge the cancellation.
I’ve been doing my best to abide by their so-called ‘Community Guidelines,’ but they recently updated it again using very vague wordings that gives them a lot of space to discriminate. Technically, anything that implies sexual activity is a violation. During this recent policy update, I found a lot of other queer artists also lost their accounts and haven’t been able to get it back.
Losing it was very painful but also emancipating at the same time. It made me realise that I’m still an artist and have people who believe in my work even if the practice didn’t exist anymore. I found that as soon as I started a new one, almost half of my followers have found me. It’s really beautiful to know that I have created these relationships with so many people.
CEO
F: Any final words? Do you want to ask me a question? I haven’t talked about myself in a while. I’m happy to give you some business advice should you so require.
E: Firstly, I want to thank you for giving me this opportunity to talk about my work. There’s some questions here that I haven’t fully talked about before or explored myself so it’s given me a fun opportunity to do that but also bring other people along with me.
I underestimated the time it took to answer these questions. I think I’ve spent almost 8 thinking and writing my answers! Wow-wee!
If anyone wants to connect with me, you can find my art practice on Instagram.
If anyone wants to see my sexy content, you can find me on Twitter, and if you want to watch this horny bitch in action, watch me on JustForFans!
Before I go, I’d love to ask you a few questions. I’m curious to know, would you be open to using a gloryhole for fun and which end would you like to be at? Do you have any sexual fantasies, kik, fetishes that you’re still yet to/curious in exploring? And what are they? And what turns you on about them?
F: Omg shitting even thinking about answering this! Well, the older I get, the more I’m able to seperate sex and feelings, which is great because it means I can go and fug without thinking the person needs to become a long-term partner. I also find it’s easier to connect with someone when you’re not putting all this pressure on it. For a long time I treated sex like a performance – partially out of wanting to be polite and make sure the other person feels good, but also because I felt I had to be super ‘sexy’ which I shudder even remembering... Lol! So to answer your question, I would be open to a gloryhole experience.
Wow! I feel high-key learned. Positive post-nut clarity. Thanks for reading, and even more thanks to dear Emil.
J’adore and see you next week 😘
Froomes